I Need A Hand To Hold.

I thought to myself, he was one boy who couldn't hurt me.
Turns out I was wrong.
I can't look at your face without imagining your lips on hers.
I can't look at your hands without imagining them all over her body.
I can't look at your anything without seeing her.
But honestly, I'm happy for you.
See this huge fake smile ?
Honestly, I'm glad you love her.
See this fake enthusiasm?
I guess I'm not "back up" anymore.
You don't need back up, seeing as the two of you are so in love.
I hate that you think I had waaay more chances than her, since I've known you longer.
Well, sorry I don't automatically assume everyone is in love with me.
How was I to know I even had a chance ?
I'm not so good with subtlety !

You asked me out for lunch today.
I said no.
You asked me to come see a movie today.
I said no.
I'm not busy, I just don't want to.